some of the best advice ever:

you're only as strong as the tables you dance on, the drinks you mix, and the friends you roll with

Currently Listening Every Man for Himself By Hoobastank see related

i dont' know what to do!!!! i'm lost! i'm happy, yet i'm sad. wed. was an amazing day...it was just perfect. woke up early, took leia to lunch for alumni appreciation, and then we went to go see over the hedge...which was definately worth it! it was really really good to get to talk to her and get to know her a lil bit better since i hadn't been able to. and leia's someone everyone should look up to a respect, and i don't believe enough of the house did. i mean, c'mon, with her position...and half the house not even knowing she had a position until she willed it onto someone else...that's sad. and i remember when her, my big, amanda, and i went to coldstone, and she talked about that. which is true. so i felt i would benefit from getting to know her better. then i got home, took a nap, then hung out with tarra, got to talk to my big sis on the phone, and then hung out with christine. and i talked to amanda m, steph f, and yvonne. it was great, but it made me miss my sisters soooooooo much!!!  i just...i wish i could be with all of them. it's just a familiar place. i miss it.

i don't know what to do about my not-so-crush. *sigh* things are so jumbled up and mixed up...i really don't know what to do. it's so complicated. i don't even know what i want. i want to not feel this way. i want things to not be so damn confusing. i want things to make sense. i want to feel one way, and one way only. but i can't and it was stupid of me to think that love...or even lust could be easy. falling for someone you're not supposed to fall for because they're taken is dangerous.

this won't make much sense but...

i love that hat. it's been worn by the lucky...it brings out the more adventurous of those whom wear it. that hat is infamous in our sorority. get the hat, hit the dance floor, and it's great!

life sucks right about now. yeah so i found out that stephanie and greg are going out. or...they're going to start i suppose. not that i'm even half as upset as i was whenever i thought about the fact that i never had a chance with racoon. because 2 years of rejection sucks worse than anything. unrequited love...endless feelings, something new. what i felt for racoon was something stronger and more daring than what i've felt for anyone else, even greg. but still doesn't mean it doesn't suck. even tho i knew it was coming. in the back of my mind i could see it happening. i suppose it was bound to happen. and stephanie handeled it well. before any damage was done. she was more concerned about me. which i appreciate. i suppose years of rejection can put a bruise on someone's ego. tho sometimes i just figured i like greg out of pure convienence. more to get over my 25 month obssession with my love interest. which of course never worked out, and i'm over it. i think i need someone a lil more morbid and cynical to fit me. but anyways, i just turned on the radio just for shits and giggles...and this song came on for about 20 seconds. and i knew it was perfect, and it was meant for this. maybe that's why i heard it.

KoRn-come undone

Keep holdin on,
When my brains tickin like a bomb.
Cuts the black,
Cocks the gun.
Up in to get me.

Sweet bitter words,
Unlike nothing I have heard.
Sing along mocking bird,
You don't effect me.

That’s right,
Deliver it to my heart.
Please try,
And deliver it.

Wait, I’m coming undone.
Irate, I’m coming undone.
Too late, I’m coming undone.
What looks so strong so delicate?

Wait, I’m starting to suffocate.
And soon I anticipate,
I’m coming undone.
What looks so strong so delicate?

Choke, choke again.
I thought my demons were my friends.
Pity me.
In the end,
They're out to get me.

Since I was young,
I tasted sorrow on my tongue.
And this sweet jerky gun,
Does not protect me.

That’s right,
Trigger between my eyes.
Please try,
Make it click now.

Wait, I’m coming undone
Irate, I’m coming undone
Too late, I’m coming undone
What looks so strong so delicate?

Wait, I’m starting to suffocate.
And soon I anticipate,
I’m coming undone.
What looks so strong so delicate?


I’m trying to hold it together,
And it’s like I’m never better.
Looks like I’m not getting better.
Not getting better.

Wait, I’m coming undone.
Irate, I’m coming undone
Too late, I’m coming undone
What looks so strong so delicate?

Wait, I’m starting to suffocate.
And soon I anticipate,
I’m coming undone.
What looks so strong so delicate?

yeay for new pictures!!! okay, so my default pic would be me pretty much feelin like olivia or alma! probably because that would be their family line! hehe! but they're sunflower...so we're somehow related! i've actually talked more with alma's family line. okay, it starts with delphia marissa (latest addition) then it goes to alma, then olivia, then marissa l, her twin is leia, their big sis is lauren, then charlene then leah. wow! and i've met all of them! so it's marissa, then me, then lauren, then leia! yup! awesomeness!

yeay! me and greg!

f'd family!